busy bee

this month, i am having to do lots of work. and i may have been too annoyed. im actually pretty lazy to type down anything right now. i have to prepare for tutorial and finish off two assignments. im grateful that i could only register for two subjects. even as it is im pretty packed up. i look at my arms and tell myself to go exercise but, damn. can i say im too lazy? anyway, besides that i also have to finish up these books ive decided to read. i wish i could just finish it off in one go. like some incredible bookworm. 

having applied for internet banking i took up some responsibilities, and one of them is buying airplane tickets. somehow, i dunno. it feels like the money is slipping through my fingers. i want to go work. but im too scared to just do it. i see the part timer sign and i urge myself. but alas, i still find myself passing by it and not entering. why is it that i can find courage for some ridiculous things but not for the important aspects in life. like making more friends, joining more activities, going into random shops, .....gah. im even afraid to try new food. im ashamed of myself. i want to be more outgoing but ive been so me that i cant. (i know stupid excuse)

doing new things, now that should be something on my list on everyday of my life. hahahaha, like that would actually happen. well maybe per month or per week. potato, ive got other things to do then try out new things. grr, make up your mind Baica. please, my mind is not the only authority here. to end this, ive dyed my hair. tehee!

note: i chose the color light golden brown cause my mum said to pick brown. its different and well its something new as well.