that house

the title is going to be somewhat irrelevant but here goes nothing. (more like something if you count me typing away).

It gets tiring when what you love and trust in is constantly insulted. Im currently doing an assignment of Islamic law and boy! have there been many remarks about the Prophet on the internet. I understand if they were to, you know, provide some clarity on who or what he was but come on lah....do you have to compare? not to mention be arrogant and say how wrong others are? *sigh*

the point is i feel like the guy whose brand new house got splashed red paint with for no reason. read this in the news a few days ago, poor guy. i mean that house was expensive man~ 

oh, also in the news, tear jerking story on how this guy learned a valuable lesson when he killed 3 cubs of snow leopard. the picture just broke my heart, dangerous-claw-sharpened-innocent-looking-leopard, Alhamdullillah, the man now works to helps these poor creatures.

i guess, sometimes we take our thinking too far and only just regret it later when we find that we were wrong. that's hard, telling not only yourself but others that you were wrong. i can see that, and i understand. but, i think i still havent learn.

note: im doing it at my own pace. its all according to God's plan.

powerless and burdened

I don't know what to do.

My heart feels heavy.

My stomach a little unhappy.

My mind in a mess. 

And my soul in depress.

Ya Allah S.W.T., you of all and anyone know how weak I am. Give me strength. I don't know how to respond to news of sadness and fears. especially if i'm so far from the person concerned. i am powerless to help and yet my whole being is so burdened. God give me strength. Amin.

TALK ABOUT JOY AND CRY

Recently, my eldest brother bought me some air plane tickets for my journey home and back. I'VE DISCOVERED THAT I'M RATHER A MONEY GOBLIN. To my shame, when I found that he had purchased a RM 200 ticket for one flight, tears poured out my eyes. And then i got dizzy and tragically called myself sick and did not move from the bed until the next day. (which was like somewhere in the am part of a day)

 HAHAHAHAHA! but i could just blame it on my period so.....moving on....

today, i splurged! on no less than 4 mildly good comics, it so happens that one of them was the continuation of this long comic. which by the way was a good long comic but i'll not spoil it here cause my sister hasn't read it perhaps and I've not sent it. might mention the name of said good long comic in comments, so watch out! Also, I spent my money to just ride the bus and eat some kuih as well as mee goreng. This famous dish although supposedly something i should like enjoy everyday is just something i take once in a while whenever i miss the taste of it.

i also failed my mid term for tort law. oh goody! =_= now stress lah for the finals. insyallah the others wont be so bad on my heart and conscience. finally got rid of doing my criminal assignment but the presentation is soon and other assignments will start piling up. ugh! i dread........but what to do i want high scores so must FOCUS!

i also had a chat with a friend who is amazing in both arts and writing, oh why do i keep finding amazing people. oh, but thats not the point. the point is i find myself pretty average when comparing. i know, i know. DUN COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS. easily said then done, still i got some points in the cleaning department im sure.

I'm still not done with Romeo and Juliet, since i am a really really really slow reader. its a bad habit i wish i could break! even so, i went and borrowed other books. rather ambitious but good books are very seductive and i blame it entirely on the authors. i'm finding that my topics have now dwindled to zero hence good day! and adieu. 

note: i missed comic fiesta to go to tort tutorial but i missed tutorial as well. BAD BAICA!

this life of mine.

am now just posting something to update my readers on my life.

yesterday, i took up a book on "JINN". i'm a coward when it comes to unseen things or unnatural, if you must. the book speaks of how they are made from fire, and although it was at times eye opening. it made me question more upon that existence. like the devil, is of fire. but some say he was an angel, yet angels are made from light. so........what was he? 

other than that, apparently they have the power to take the human form and such. so me just picturing the worse sort of faces might not be correct. i wonder, clearly such knowledge are not for me to gain and ponder upon. still, its good to know your fears better. makes it abit more understandable.

besides that book, i also read abit on "ROMEO AND JULIET". i of course for more entertainment purposes, read it aloud. oh! how fun it is. i especially like the part where Romeo is being such a sad case of a broken heart. you can tell teenagers then and now are quite the same. but i must say, he was rather quick to kill himself. 

am still searching for a smaller book in the library that may consist of emily dickinson's poems but i'm thinking it would be best to go buy it. after all, poems take more time understanding than a story. laundry should be done now. i'm off. ahhh, the life of a student.

note: crash course literature and Adyla made me dabble into poetry these days.

Truthfully, they're RIDICULOUS.

it's the story you hear time and time again, about how they are so busy so you gotta carry the burden.

what bullshiat is that? like i'm so free to be doing most part of the work.

ahhh, im so tired of such immature people. do they think life is so easy and that they deserve to swim through it while others drown and choke on water just to breath? How selfish can the people around me get? i am at times astounded by their actions. don't they see that what their doing is wrong? can't they feel the burn of shame as i glare at them and as the earth gets rotten?

i shudder to think the future of many children. as i walk pass by a certain area and find the air smelling like crap and garbage. i wonder, do people actually enjoy going out to the streets and finding it smelling like this? can't they image a future where there's no such thing as fresh air? WELL HECK I CAN! 

reverting back to the work part of my rant, it is these kind of people that i share the world with. that i share all the loveliness of nature with. sometimes, i just really wish they don't get to enjoy it. it's not like they treasure it and if they do well i find it not sincere enough. it's like when someone says thank you, but their not even looking at you. like a flip of the hand. 

again i've steered off topic, i know i'm starting to sound high on my horse but i really do love clean things. although, i can't say the same for my room because of how busy i am recently but i'm telling you it's still homey! now i'm going to complete my assignment and just go with the flow~

SHOCK!

There i was refilling my bottle, after walking up a hill in the local area.

Then BAAM!

Two topless dudes come out of the gym!

Thank God i was done. i quickly turn away and proceed to nonchalantly go on my merry way. You'd think they'd get the idea that i'm shocked to my whiskers (even if i was trying to be casual about it), but no they called out more of their friends. Gosh, i felt like a pervert. 

I know, i'm being too dramatic but i rarely see topless men. at least in real life, i can't help those male models. or actors. 

Anyway, that wasn't the only thing today. My bloody apartment entrance card is acting up. ARHHH! if i have to pay just cause the card's being a total jerk, i'll burst i tell ya. it's my second card and paying for a new one is like RM 60. i'm a STUDENT NOT A RICH DONKEY KING. no offence to kings, donkeys or rich people but please. i don't wanna pay.

I'd like to end my rant by saying that at least i did good today. Today, I can proudly say i made someone (a stranger) laugh. Yes! you read it right! I ENTERTAINED. Can't say it was totally amazing since i did it by making a fool of myself but i made a stranger laugh. Ain't i a sweetheart.

Also, I greeted an old gentleman who i've conversed with before but don't know of. Cause he asked if i was a student and such on our first meeting. So today i made the first move and greeted him. Sadly, i'm not so good at talking to plain strangers i rarely see so it ended with his reply of 'walaikumsalam'. Oh well, an effort is an effort. no matter how it ended. 

.............................the end? i say how do you end a post? hrmmm........................

till next time! TA TA!

note: blogging is rather addictive.

Oh, God.

How shall i start? 

The title for this blog i feel was too much of a normal choice, but so what. I'm told this is a place to just inform the world what i'm doing. Really, if it's too blindingly horrid and childish blame my sister. 

As i look through the fonts provided i find that only this allows my words to have some space between them. Ain't that neat only one suits my needs. Fabulous. 

Oh! SEE THERE! i tried something else out. HA HA!  

Ugh, damn the highlighter. Adyla! this is too troublesome. or at least at the moment it's providing to be quite a distraction.

Anyway, you should point out to me if there's a CODE FOR BLOGGERS. i'm really new at this. Aside from that, for you! my day's activities.

1. woke up at two pm. thus, missing all my tutorial. i know BAD BAICA!
2. bath, like always. 
3. played around with the laptop.
4. sembahyang zohor.
5. go to petrol station, as i do this i'm chatting with my friend (Nadwa) in her car.
6. next, we went to Secret Recipe for cake. You must know since i msged you a picture.
7. on to Mydin, a shopping mall cause my friend wanted to buy stuff. to which i join into cause she accompanied me on my trip last time. (couldn't resist buying pears)
8. after the little adventure in the grocery department, we went to another shopping mall. you might remember. it's called MELAKA MALL. anyway, there we just went to buy burger and fries.
9. to campus. ALAS, we made a stop to the print shop.
10. really to campus now. where i bid my friend adieu and thank you.
11. sembahyang maghrib. (i'm sure you've noticed the absence of asar. i won't justify my actions.)
12. i then entered the classroom for the Criminal Law replacement lecture.
13. having ended class within 1 hour and was such an angel during it to, i leave for my nest.
14. back in the hole, i went to view your post. (it's really just been me talking to you alone. FEEL HONORED!)
15. okay, then (like i said, normal everyday living) bath and eat some pears.
16. played again with my laptop while trying to study for tomorrow's exam. (until this moment of course).

To help with the reading, i've highlighted the sentences hoping to separate them and let you readers concentrate. The End. because seriously i need to study.